2002-05-14 1:47 p.m.

life is kinda 'funny' right now

OK, sometimes I just have so many things, thoughts, feelings inside about all types of random things and it all rolls into this huge ball and I just have to get it out somehow, either by telling someone, or writting it down, or typing it into this little journal thing - so, um, I opted for the third right now!:)

Going without school for 5 1/2 months really makes it interesting the first day back, which was today. I spent 4 hours this morning in US History I (it's only a 3 week class) and actually was thrilled to be learning! We had an interesting teacher and I'm so reminded of this inner thirst for knowledge of mine! of course, that also kinda sucks 'cause I forget how overwelhming knowledge can be. I mean, maybe I'm the only one who's ever felt like this, but sometimes I get so overwelhemed walking into a Barnes and Noble just thinking of all the books and all the stuff there is out in this world and how I want to know everything, but how will I ever get to it all? So, it's great to feel like this again, but also bad, 'cause I know what happens when I think too much and I once again realize how meaningless life and everything is. so, hmm...new subject...

boys/relationships/marriage/and all that crap - ahh!! OK, two of my new roomies are engaged and the other is seriously dating a guy. Of course, guys are very nice things to have around when you have to move all your crap into a new house :), and they were all over yesterday as we were moving in. Of course the guys helped carry in my stuff too, but it was kinda sad being the only girl that had to put together her bed by herself. This year is going to be interesting. I need to hang out with more single friends!!! :) Oh, and this school I go to, I swear it's just a marriage factory! And of course, this being senior year and it's like people are afraid to leave here unmarried, I know there will be an INSANE amount of proposals this year. It's funny to me how people will only date for a few months here and then get engaged and yet, that's all normal!!!!!! Yeah, and it dosen't help that I'm retarded about guys. OK, so I'm not retarded, but well, my guy situation is kinda funny right now...hmm...well...I'm not going to go into it right now, but yeah, just too much to think about! :) next subject change...

I lied. I am missing California. Or just real recently I have been. I miss they way people are, that they don't assume that sundays and wednesday nights are 'church' time for everyone. I miss how open people will be about things, maybe it's just the 'secular' world, but what is wrong with saying sex or talking about nude paintings in a classroom? I mean, I don't like nude paintings and I don't look at them, I'm not having sex and I don't plan to for awhile, but that doesn't mean the words are taboo for me. Maybe my teaher is just old fashioned, but we were talking about these paintings back around 1500 with nude people and he would only refer to them as 'without clothing' or 'unclothed' and it just was funny.

You know, I use the word 'funny' to mean a lot of different things: strange, weird, complicated, interesting, hilarious, etc. So, yeah, I guess everything is just plain funny!!!

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