Fri, Nov. 03, 2006 12:49 p.m.
my favorite entries (2001-2008)
I've decided to make a list of some of my favorite and/or best entries I've written over the past 7 years, just because...
Tues., Mar. 4, 2008 - it's safe to say that today mattered
Thurs., Oct. 11, 2007 - that job I never talked about
Wed., Mar. 21, 2007 - it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
Sat., Mar. 03, 2007 - beauty in a bathroom stall
Mon., Nov. 27, 2006 - coffee shop rhythm
Fri., Aug. 25, 2006 - wow
Wed., Aug. 23, 2006 - scared to type the last lette
Fri., Aug. 18, 2006 - dear god, please exist
Mon., Apr. 3, 2006 - just to make this time worth something.
Mon., Jan. 16, 2006 - I started writing before I realized it was #400"
Wed., Nov. 23, 2005 - just existing
Wed., Oct. 26, 2005 - new social security card
Fri., Sept. 30, 2005 - tomorrow, tomorrow, I wed thee tomorrow
Thurs., Sept. 1, 2005 - will you marry me?
Mon., Apr. 4, 2005 - my other
Mon., Feb. 21, 2005 - what's the point of eating? you're gonna poop it out anyways.
Tues., Nov. 16, 2004 - is this love??
Sat., Oct. 16, 2004 - and I'm supposed to be smart??
Wed., Jun. 2, 2004 - committing Diaryland suicide
Thurs., Apr. 8, 2004 - hello, are you there?
Sat., Feb. 24, 2004 - traffic is to zit as:
Thurs., Dec. 11, 2003 - history
Tues., Dec. 2, 2003 - lonliness...again...lonliness...again
Sat., Nov. 1, 2003 - post-party reflections
Sun., Sept. 28, 2003 - mint chocolate cookie
Thurs., Sept. 18, 2003 - a prayer?
Thurs., Aug. 21, 2003 - www.diaryland.com
Wed., Apr. 30, 2003 - Your Guide to Delivering an Award-Winning Sermon
Wed., Mar. 26, 2003 - college: best years of my life?
Thurs., Jan. 3, 2003 - I didn't die
Mon., Dec. 23, 2002 - weed
Wed., Nov. 20, 2002 - I can't do this college thing anymore!
Mon., Oct 28, 2002 - FREED, FREED; I'M FREED AT LAST
Sat., Oct. 12, 2002 - the goal of Homecoming Queen
Tues., April 2, 2002 - puddle of puke
Fri., Nov. 16, 2001 - LA here I come!!
Tues., Sept. 11, 2001 - 911
Tuesday, Nov. 25, 2014 - strange dream
Monday, Oct. 06, 2014 - catholic and friends
Thursday, Sept. 04, 2014 - changing. and I need to go to bed.
Saturday, Aug. 30, 2014 - dreams of dying
Chapters of My Life
Motherhood
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.