Saturday, Jul. 28, 2007 - keep the aspidistra flying
Thursday, Jul. 19, 2007 - not crossing my fingers this time
Wednesday, Jul. 18, 2007 - -
Friday, Jul. 13, 2007 - another job bites the dust.
Sunday, Jul. 08, 2007 - the worst good news
Tuesday, Jul. 03, 2007 - stolen goods
Monday, Jun. 18, 2007 - keeping my fingers crossed
Wednesday, Jun. 13, 2007 - bitter
Monday, Jun. 11, 2007 - why not death?
Saturday, Jun. 09, 2007 - paris hilton
Friday, Jun. 08, 2007 - and the worst part is that I know no one cares.
Tuesday, Jun. 05, 2007 - something blue
Sunday, Jun. 03, 2007 - what happened?
Monday, May. 28, 2007 - procreation. ugh.
Thursday, May. 24, 2007 - I hate being a teacher. it makes me feel old.
Monday, May. 14, 2007 - I guess those vows were meant to be taken literally, huh?
Wednesday, Apr. 25, 2007 - -
Sunday, Apr. 22, 2007 - what people don't want to know about the war.
Wednesday, Apr. 18, 2007 - if I were postsecret
Saturday, Apr. 14, 2007 - stop
Friday, Apr. 13, 2007 - selling myself to science
Sunday, Apr. 08, 2007 - I hate math!! why am I teaching it?
Wednesday, Apr. 04, 2007 - ariel's dead
Thursday, Mar. 22, 2007 - hope is easier said than done
Wednesday, Mar. 21, 2007 - it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
Saturday, Mar. 17, 2007 - insignificant significance
Friday, Mar. 16, 2007 - something more than existance
Saturday, Mar. 10, 2007 - these things I pray
Saturday, Mar. 03, 2007 - beatuy in a bathroom stall
Thursday, Feb. 22, 2007 - egg donor hopeful
Friday, Feb. 09, 2007 - the cell ringtone that adults can't hear!
Sunday, Feb. 04, 2007 - beyond
Wednesday, Jan. 31, 2007 - http://www.archive.org
Friday, Jan. 26, 2007 - ugh.
Monday, Jan. 22, 2007 - apparently I'm really becoming a rambling fool in here now
Monday, Jan. 22, 2007 - i write because i'm retarded.
Tuesday, Jan. 16, 2007 - being a big sister
Monday, Jan. 15, 2007 - I have a confession:
Sunday, Jan. 14, 2007 - god, I need a lobotomy.
Saturday, Jan. 13, 2007 - myspace friends
Friday, Jan. 12, 2007 - grammer
Thursday, Jan. 11, 2007 - a girl's worst nightmare
Wednesday, Jan. 03, 2007 - -
Tuesday, Jan. 02, 2007 - should've quit when I was ahead
Monday, Jan. 01, 2007 - for good luck
Sunday, Dec. 17, 2006 - why I don't want kids enough to have them
Saturday, Dec. 16, 2006 - opening weekend!
Friday, Dec. 15, 2006 - the irony of K
Monday, Dec. 11, 2006 - The Premiere
Friday, Dec. 08, 2006 - I write about my job a lot, because it makes me think a lot.
Wednesday, Dec. 06, 2006 - better
Friday, Dec. 01, 2006 - alcohol makes writing fun
Chapters of My Life
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.