Wednesday, Jan. 03, 2024 - first time second time
Friday, Dec. 22, 2023 - not the story I planned to tell, part 1
Thursday, Aug. 03, 2017 - hello?
Tuesday, Nov. 25, 2014 - strange dream
Monday, Oct. 06, 2014 - catholic and friends
Thursday, Sept. 04, 2014 - changing. and I need to go to bed.
Saturday, Aug. 30, 2014 - dreams of dying
Thursday, Aug. 14, 2014 - let's move on
Tuesday, Aug. 12, 2014 - turning tide
Saturday, Aug. 02, 2014 - what's meant to be
Saturday, Jul. 19, 2014 - this is it
Thursday, Jul. 17, 2014 - waiting
Friday, Jul. 11, 2014 - leap of faith
Wednesday, Jun. 18, 2014 - where do we go from here?
Saturday, Jun. 14, 2014 - becoming Catholic, pt. 1
Wednesday, Jun. 11, 2014 - steeping up as an egg donor
Saturday, May. 17, 2014 - things in 'motion'?
Wednesday, May. 14, 2014 - 11:50
Tuesday, Apr. 29, 2014 - mom x2
Sunday, Apr. 20, 2014 - nervous
Monday, Apr. 14, 2014 - coming soon
Monday, Apr. 07, 2014 - My 15 yr. Religious Journey, Pt. 1
Wednesday, Mar. 26, 2014 - the person I thought I'd be
Friday, Mar. 14, 2014 - countdown
Sunday, Feb. 23, 2014 - done w/pregnancy
Tuesday, Feb. 04, 2014 - hope. sucks.
Wednesday, Jan. 22, 2014 - it is what it is
Saturday, Dec. 21, 2013 - -
Thursday, Nov. 14, 2013 - hope
Wednesday, Nov. 06, 2013 - a scary incident and moving on
Saturday, Nov. 02, 2013 - -
Saturday, Oct. 12, 2013 - dreams will be dreams
Sunday, Sept. 22, 2013 - one year ago
Friday, Sept. 20, 2013 - come what may
Sunday, Sept. 08, 2013 - brunch/when the check cashes...
Friday, Sept. 06, 2013 - more nothing
Thursday, Aug. 22, 2013 - bobbing
Friday, Aug. 16, 2013 - brewing
Wednesday, Aug. 14, 2013 - approaching
Wednesday, Aug. 07, 2013 - still going
Thursday, Jul. 25, 2013 - the deadline for change is approaching
Tuesday, Jul. 09, 2013 - countdown to a new beginning
Thursday, Jun. 27, 2013 - Catholicism vs Baha'i
Wednesday, Jun. 26, 2013 - What I believe, 3 years later
Wednesday, Jun. 26, 2013 - ROUGH DRAFT
Friday, Jun. 14, 2013 - it is what it is
Friday, Jun. 07, 2013 - hoping
Wednesday, Jun. 05, 2013 - Catholicism
Monday, Jun. 03, 2013 - officially
Sunday, Jun. 02, 2013 - fun while it lasted
Wednesday, May. 29, 2013 - the worst (or maybe best) timing
Thursday, May. 23, 2013 - "We're not destitute, not yet."
Saturday, May. 04, 2013 - The Impossible, and death
Wednesday, Mar. 27, 2013 - e=mc^2
Thursday, Mar. 14, 2013 - future schmuture, money schmoney
Friday, Mar. 08, 2013 - reading his texts
Friday, Mar. 08, 2013 - darkest before the dawn?
Saturday, Mar. 02, 2013 - it is
Friday, Jan. 25, 2013 - I'm not compaining, really.
Saturday, Jan. 19, 2013 - For when I look back
Sunday, Jan. 13, 2013 - you don't want to hear anything you don't want to hear
Wednesday, Jan. 02, 2013 - 2013
Sunday, Dec. 23, 2012 - missing us
Wednesday, Dec. 12, 2012 - 9 days til the end of the world
Monday, Dec. 10, 2012 - tbd
Saturday, Dec. 01, 2012 - the pit of K
Saturday, Nov. 03, 2012 - the end sinking in
Friday, Oct. 19, 2012 - 6 weeks w/o a paycheck
Wednesday, Oct. 10, 2012 - here we go again
Sunday, Sept. 30, 2012 - dreams of being a SAHM
Sunday, Sept. 23, 2012 - tired
Thursday, Aug. 30, 2012 - seven year itch
Saturday, Aug. 11, 2012 - invisiblity
Friday, Aug. 10, 2012 - time keeps on ticking
Tuesday, Jul. 31, 2012 - feeling down
Saturday, Jul. 28, 2012 - wishing my body was normal
Tuesday, Jul. 24, 2012 - the summer was not what I hoped
Sunday, Jun. 03, 2012 - friendships and lack of them
Wednesday, May. 23, 2012 - three pregnant sisters
Thursday, May. 17, 2012 - entry #2 tonight
Wednesday, May. 16, 2012 - lost and rambling and 8 months old
Friday, Apr. 20, 2012 - marriage and a new BIL that I have not yet met
Saturday, Mar. 24, 2012 - please sir, may I have some more?
Friday, Mar. 09, 2012 - Las Vegas with a baby
Monday, Feb. 06, 2012 - home intruder
Monday, Feb. 06, 2012 - rant about car seats
Wednesday, Feb. 01, 2012 - but once to live
Sunday, Jan. 08, 2012 - a year ago on Friday
Tuesday, Jan. 03, 2012 - another episode and thinking of #2
Friday, Dec. 09, 2011 - so tired (of)(and) growing old
Monday, Dec. 05, 2011 - tears of joy
Saturday, Nov. 19, 2011 - staying home
Friday, Nov. 11, 2011 - so in love
Sunday, Oct. 30, 2011 - to work or not to work? and #2
Wednesday, Oct. 26, 2011 - feast or famine
Wednesday, Oct. 19, 2011 - lost friendship
Monday, Oct. 10, 2011 - Baby C's birth; the long version
Friday, Sept. 30, 2011 - two weeks in and it's hard
Tuesday, Sept. 20, 2011 - baby C
Chapters of My Life
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.