Monday, Aug. 30, 2010 10:39 a.m.

Emmy after-party

I wasn't drunk last night. But memories are slowly filtering in this morning as though I were. Did that really happen? Was I really there? Did I really see who I thought I did?

I think its because it all happened so fast. Not the event necessarily, but the lead up to it. K got an email about it Wed., got the invite in the mail Thurs., we kind of forgot about it Fri. and Sat. and then, bam - it was Sunday. I hadn't even thought about a dress until Sat. night.

Speaking of dresses, I apparently only like to take on sewing projects if I have an immediate and last-minute need for something. I had a backup dress, the one I wore to K's premiere, but I decided, no - I wanted a new dress. And I didn't want to spend any money on it.

So I took my bridesmaid dress from my sister's wedding 4 years ago and made some significant alterations. I worked on it all day. And then I wore it...to one of the most fashionable parties...in the world. Quite possibly.

Whoa - that's weird of me to say. It's also weird that it may actually be true.

Needless to say, the party was amazing, if not a bit overwhelming. I saw a LOT of famous people. I didn't even know if they were famous after while. I don't really know who too many celebrities are, and since they were everywhere, and they all looked familiar since I must have seen them on tv before - my mind was just lost. I never knew if I knew someone for real, or only knew them on tv. And then, I didn't know their names. So I just stood around (well, walked in circles amongst crowds) and looked at people.

Speaking of being lost, the person I think was the coolest that I saw was Ben from Lost.

I kept thinking, "I'm in an important place tonight." I thought that if something horrendous happened to all of us (earthquake, terrorist attack, etc) to all of us at that party - well, it'd be big news. All over the world. Weird. I thought about if this party were the Titanic. These people would be in the first class lounge. And I'd be with them.

I also kept thinking about all of the fashion everywhere. What people were wearing. These events define the times and the future's remembrance of 2010 fashion. Women looked amazing in amazing dresses...yet they also looked like people in dresses. I may not be one of them, but I felt like I just as well could be. I've got just as many flaws as they do. We're all just people.

It was fun though, moving through the crowds, finding people from K's show to talk to. We weren't complete 'tourists'. We kind of belonged. Maybe only a few knew who we (and by we, I mean K) were, but being known by only a few was all that was needed.

Talking to one of the stars of K's show. Making plans to play poker together some night. People with big cameras stopping to take her picture. People carrying around Emmy trophies. This was all normal. Yet it wasn't. Yet it was.

Another member of K's show's cast, who's only 19 or something, but underage, drinking right in front of K and I and neither of us caring. Once you're in the party, you're in the party. No one cards. No one needs to. Celebrities aren't above the law, it's just that no one cares.

When we left, we got gift bags. I only briefly looked through them. Some lotion and lipstick and some other stuff? I'm sure it's expensive. I can't believe people just get these things. I can't believe how expensive that party was.

I can't believe how normal I felt being there, even though I wasn't anyone important. I can't believe how much I've grown in the past 7 years since moving to L.A. I can't believe that I feel comfortable in the life of the fancy party jut as much as I feel comfortable in the life of living in a trailer.

Life is just strange.

We didn't bring a camera. I didn't know if we were allowed to, though apparently we must have been since others had theirs. We did get one quick snap with K's phone. That's all we have to remember it by. But it's in my head somewhere...and slowly coming back out into my memories.

And it's even stranger to think that, if things go well for K...I might have more of these events to attend in the future.

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