Wednesday, Feb. 11, 2004 12:32 p.m.

and the weird coincidence of the year award goes to...

ok, sometimes coincidences are so weird that they don�t seem like coincidences...i mean, seriously, how weird is the world sometimes?!

so, i'm out here in l.a., out of college, and realizing that i miss learning and decide to sign up for a ucla extension class just for fun. and of all classes, what class do i sign up for? a philosophy of mind class - i know, there's something seriously wrong with me...taking this class "for fun"...what the hell is wrong with me, right? well, i'm kinda excited because i've never taken a class that's been presented from a completely opposite side of christianity. and at ucla of all places! i mean, this is l.a.!! i knew there had to be other interesting characters in this class 'cause there's only so many people in the world who are facinated and really care wether or not we have a mind, you know? AND it's on the ucla campus!! i can't even tell you how crazy it is to step foot on a place this huge!

anyways, so the class has been good so far, really interesting and not as over-my-head as i thought a "secular" class would be coming from my "christian" education. the professor is cool, the other people in the class are cool, it's an overall great time. i don't like to speak much in class since i realize i don't know anything anyways and a lot of people who ask a bunch of questions in philosophy classes are arrogant bastards who usually don't know anything.

but for some crazy reason that i still don't understand i decided to make a comment (after class) to the professor about the weirdness of my religious background as compared with this class. AND come to find out, to make a long story short, i found out that the professor graduated from ACU!!!!! ACU!! do you understand how crazy of a thing this is?! i mean, here i am, thinking that i'm this odd person to escape from ACU without specific religious beliefs and how amazing it is to get to take a class from this "secular" viewpoint, and my own professor teaching it went to the same conservative christian college that i did!!

it's just weird. weird. weird weird. so we talked after class about some of the stuff you'd have to be a student of that particular univ. to understand and how he got to be a philosohpy professor at ucla. he was a religious studies major. how funny. he got married to a girl he met there. even funnier. ahh...good ole ACU...so people can learn to think after leaving that place after all... :)

but isn't it weird that of ALL ucla extension classes, i choose that one? i should've taken a history class like i really meant to, but when i first got the brochure, i just knew i had to be in THIS class. and of all the philosophy professors at ucla, THIS one decided to teach THIS class. and of all the times i don't speak in classes, i decided to say something in THIS class ABOUT MY RELIGIOUS EDUCATION to THIS very professor who understood it!

sometimes things just seem too coincidental to be just a coincidence, but i�m not sure, especially given the context of the very class i'm taking it in, that i can believe it to be anything else. and that almost makes it even weirder.

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Chapters of My Life
Motherhood
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.