Tuesday, Mar. 18, 2003 9:43 a.m.
to all those anti-war people...
ok - I usually recognize that I know very little real information about this stuff and therefore refuse to get involved without proper understanding...but I think this needs to be said:
I�m sick of people whining!! I�m sick of anti-war rallies and people (i.e. The Dixie Chicks) publicly bashing Pres. Bush!! Yes, the film industry is my chosen future career, but I�m sick of Hollywood thinking that their opinion is the only one that matters...
People! Stop being spoiled brats! I do not claim to know the answers, nor do I claim to agree with everything that happens in this country. I am not for war, but I understand that things sometimes must happen that are not all flowers-and-happiness-and-peace-to-all.
The world is screwed up. It will not suddenly change. People are jumping on this anti-war, anti-Bush bandwagon without even knowing what it means!
I swear to all of you, we, the American public, know so, so, so much less about all this than the heads of our government do. Though some people like to whine about this too, President Bush is our president. I�m sure he is not having an easy time throughout all of this. Thank God I am not in charge. I couldn�t handle this. I doubt any of y�all could do any better, either.
Believe it or not, I�m positive that Pres. Bush is concerned primarily with the good of our country right now. If you want to sit here and bash him all day, move to another country! You don�t have to like him, but you must trust him and the other heads of our country. That�s what they�re there for. Stop thinking that you�re better or know more than them.
Once again, I am neither pro-war, nor pro-Bush, but I think that all this recent anti-war shit has become merely a fad.
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Chapters of My Life
Motherhood
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.