Sunday, Apr. 04, 2010 9:10 p.m.

what I believe, part 2

I've done some more research. I think I'm coming to the conclusion that a religion does not exist that fits what I believe.

In continuation of my thoughts from the other day, the following are additions to what I believe:
- I should specify that not only do I believe that our worthiness will be judged based on "purity of thought, commitment to established ideals, and in a sense, 'finding your true self'", but also on commitment to intelligent reasoning.

- I believe the universe was created by the supreme, all-knowing God, but I don't really believe in the Genesis creation story. I suppose I believe in what would be considered 'intelligent design'. I believe that it is important for us to try to understand nature through scientific observations, but as our minds are unable to see the full picture that God can, our concepts of time and scientific discovery might be skewed.

- I believe God is eternal and has no beginning, and no end. Or, more precisely, I believe that time is a concept that we (again) don't fully comprehend. I think of time as an infinite circle: never beginning, never ending, not as a linear progression.

- Oh, side note, for those who get caught up on the rather ridiculous argument of God's gender: God is spirit, neither male nor female. Humans refer to God as "him" because we are used to a gender pronoun to describe some things. We call a boat "she", though it is not female either. Many languages other than English have words that are "masculine" or "feminine", but again, this does not actually make a non-living object an actual male or female.

- This brings up gender roles: I believe that inherently men and women are equal and just as intellectually capable of reason. However, I do believe specific roles within a marriage/family are to be encouraged. Men and women ARE built differently, no matter how much feminists or other groups will object. Men typically are stronger in certain areas, women stronger in others. Additionally, a family unit runs smoother when there are defined roles. There is no shame in a women who chooses to devote her life to child-rearing and housemaking, in fact, I would say that in many ways, her commitment to this role will likely have even longer reaching societal effects than that of her husband because of the influence she has over her children.

- Though this is more of a societal issue than religious issue, I believe in marriage. I believe that marriage has always been meant for heterosexual, male-female, relations...and that sexual relations are best when enjoyed within a marriage only. I believe that sex can be enjoyed without the intention of procreation, but that procreation is, and forever will be, the natural biological outcome of sex. I believe artificial reproductive technology (ART) should only be used in cases where something natural is "broken", not in place of something that was never meant to happen...i.e. ART should only be used for heterosexual married couples, not for homosexual couples trying to artificially force biology.

This is all I can think of right now, but more will come! Topics I still want to touch on: abortion, religious practices, sacred texts, ultimate life purpose, and maybe some other things too.

I kind of like doing this, and getting out all my thoughts in small chunks...

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Thursday, Aug. 03, 2017 - hello?
Tuesday, Nov. 25, 2014 - strange dream
Monday, Oct. 06, 2014 - catholic and friends
Thursday, Sept. 04, 2014 - changing. and I need to go to bed.
Saturday, Aug. 30, 2014 - dreams of dying

Chapters of My Life
Motherhood
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.