Sunday, Aug. 14, 2005 3:57 p.m.
time-out for a harry potter nerd fest
ok, so yes, it's taken me an entire month to read the new harry potter book (I got busy...sorry), but I just finished it like 20 min. ago, and AHH!!!
after 3300 pages of harry potter books, you kinda become asorbed in its world. sure, I've seen the movies, but the characters exist to me seperatly in my own mind...and I have my own judgements on them...
(and if you haven't read the book yet and/or don't want to know what happens, don't read anymore or else you'll find out stuff you don't wanna know!)
and SNAPE is the one who does it?? SNAPE??? I trusted Dumbledore's judgement of him...I assumed there was a reason Dumbledore believed he was good that we would discover in later books...and it was SNAPE??
I hate him.
and Snape was the half-blood prince too? whatever.
I believe Dumbledore is dead, I knew it would happen, but I still don't think Sirius is gone. not gone gone, at least. he's only behind the curtain...I don't know what that means exactly, but he'll play a part again...
but Snape? he can't really be a death-eater, can he? there's good in him somewhere, isn't there? but how could he kill Dumbledore? how could Dumbledore have trusted him?
and Harry not going back to Hogwarts next year? but he has to! just cause he does! that's what the whole books are based around - Hogwarts. how could he not go back?
you know what I want? answers.
who is R.A.B? where are the other horcruxes? what side is Snape really on? what's up with that mirror thing that Sirius gave Harry that Harry broke at the end of book 5? why did Dumbledore trust Snape? how exactly did his mother's love protect Harry from Voldemort? will life be happy again once Voldemort is dead or will some other evil wizard take his place?
I am such a nerd.
how many more years until book 7 comes out?
Thursday, Aug. 03, 2017 - hello?Tuesday, Nov. 25, 2014 - strange dream
Monday, Oct. 06, 2014 - catholic and friends
Thursday, Sept. 04, 2014 - changing. and I need to go to bed.
Saturday, Aug. 30, 2014 - dreams of dying
Chapters of My Life
Motherhood
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.