Saturday, Sept. 17, 2005 11:56 a.m.

enough with the political bullshit!!

ok, people are going crazy.

note: if you are one of these people, please do not view this entry as a personal attack. I don't want to start a fight. I just want to somehow, even if it's just through the small and insignificant means of a diaryland entry, stand up for what has now become the minority view.

ahh!!!!! there are people online and people who are my friends and people who appear to be intelligent who are slowly slowing losing a bit of respect from me...

I hate politics.

I choose to stay far removed from them. why work yourself into a frenzy over something that you realistically can't change anyways?

we have become a nation of finger-pointing. we have become a society of finger-pointing. nothing is our fault. the president sucks. the government sucks. we are oppressed. we have no freedom. yada, yada, yada.

we keep asking for laws to be written to protect us and then complain that the laws take away our personal freedom. what is it that you want??

everyone wants money. everyone thinks that their cause is the most worthy. everyone has their own passions and cannot be dissuaded.

there's only so much money. no wonder we are in debt...which is another thing that people complain about.

I was in student congress for a few years in college. once I joined, I stuck with it through senior year. I don't know why sometimes, it was one of the most frustrating things ever.

yet I think I took from it some very valuable lessons.

people suck. everyone is innately selfish and wants the best for themselves. everyone genuinely believes that what they need money for, or time or attention given to is right. everyone complains when they do not get what they want.

it was hard making decisions. it was hard trying to convince the rest of the student congress to agree with what my opinion of what we should do with a proposal was.

government is not perfect. it is made up of people. and people make mistakes. but that does not mean that it is a type of big-brother destroyer of freedom.

we submit ourselves to the rules of government. even the rules we do not agree with. I would like to say that that we do it because we recognize the need for order, and not chaos, within a nation. no one will EVER EVER EVER agree on anything, so this means that people are always going to be mad.

you can be mad, you can disagree. but trying to impeach the president or blame the hurricane on him is ridiculous.

a lot of people in this country are starting to act like rebellious teenagers, the government and the president our parents.

the key to growing up is realizing that our parents are just people like us, only older, with a bit more experience...and they still make mistakes.

there's something great and free-ing about growing up and accepting the reality of what is - instead of always trying to remain a teen and rebel against it, whether that rebellion is in thoughts, words or actions.

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Thursday, Aug. 03, 2017 - hello?
Tuesday, Nov. 25, 2014 - strange dream
Monday, Oct. 06, 2014 - catholic and friends
Thursday, Sept. 04, 2014 - changing. and I need to go to bed.
Saturday, Aug. 30, 2014 - dreams of dying

Chapters of My Life
Motherhood
Sept. 2011 - now Being a mother.
Isolation&Infertility (&pregnancy)
Aug. 2009 - Sept. 2011 Working from home in a job that I love...that comes with a loneliness I hate. A husband who works too much, and continued failure to start a family. Slowly spiraling, forgotten, into social invisibility. Accepting and experiencing the potential of pregnancy.
First-Year Teacher
Aug. 2008 - Aug. 2009. pretty much the hardest job I hope I ever have. and all the while trying not to admit my secret turmoil over longings for/attempts at/failure to produce what's supposedly supposed to come after love and then marriage...
Optimism
Aug. 2007 - Aug. 2008. finally accepting that becoming a normal grown up is not just inevitable, but preferable. better job situations for both of us. working freelance as a studio teacher, and becoming an egg donor.
Fading Dreams...
Dec. 2006 - July 2007. student teaching, being poor, consistent job rejections, trying to save face while feeling hopeless.
To Live a Life Worth Death...
July 2006 - Nov. 2006. thinking about death a lot, accepting life and my eventual end. career and passions - beginning the path of contribution to what I will leave behind...
Identity Crisis/Marriage
Oct. 2005 - Apr. 2006. new job. new career. new last name. new husband. new life. who was I and what was I becoming?
The Official End to Childhood? II
June 2005 - Sept. 2005. preparing for a life that still felt like pretend. was I really a 'grown-up' already? weird.
The Official End to Childhood? I
Feb. 2005 - June 2005. losing my virginity, getting engaged, changing my career, selling our childhood home...slowly losing everything that held me as a child... (Meet Mr. Mom 4/05 - 5/05. working/travelling on production of my 4th & LAST reality show ever.)
Quarter-Life Crisis/Unemployment
Sept. 2004 - Feb 2005. no steady job for 5 months - definitely not a good place to be. oh, and I fell in love - which is a good place to be, but it kind of only adds to the confusion.
Postlude to the Prelude
Apr. 2004 - May 2004. I had no clue what things were being set in motion...but everything has changed from there.
The Simple Life 2
Mar. 2004-Apr. 2004. not the deepest thinking period of my life, but I learned a heck of a lot about production of a reality tv show.
L.A. #2 - The Real World
Aug. 2003-Feb. 2004.the big move. transplanting my life. ironically not only working in the "real world", but also AT the company that makes The Real World.
That Weird, Here Nor There, Summer
May 2003-Aug. 2003. a college graduate, but not yet in the grown-up world. just existing. and waiting. and thinking.
Goodbye College
Jan. 2003-May 2003. it's a weird thing, the last semester of college. lots of thinking about what lies beyond.
The Semester From Hell
Aug. 2002-Dec. 2002. it was kind of like I tried to cram 4 yrs. of growing-up experiences into one semester.
I've Changed?
Apr. 2002-Aug. 2002. after L.A. and stuck right in-between the two most intense "finding-myself" semesters of my life!
L.A. #1 - Interning/Discovering
Jan. 2002 - Apr. 2002. I finally stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and went where I had no freakin idea what I was doing. Living outside your bubble for awhile really makes you see differently.
Beginnings/Depression
Aug. 2001-Jan. 2002. who I was, and sometimes who I still am. how it started and how it was before.